{My Thoughts} Ina May's Guide to Childbirth

This past weekend, with Irene visiting, I strategically borrowed a book from a good friend of mine "Ina May's Guide to Childbirth" and decided that while the Husband was reading through his 4 book series of Game of Thrones, I'd sit next to him and enjoy some quality time while we both read. I haven't finished it yet, as it is broken up into two parts - first part is birth stories and second part is basically things to know prior to birth; but have found it to be a very powerful reading.

Regardless of whether you birth at home, in a birth center, in a hospital or on The Farm, the reading helped to give me a better confidence in my own body and a realization that my mind and emotions are just involved in the birthing process as is my body.

A constant theme in the book is that our minds are very connected to our bodies. In other words, if something is bothering you or holding you back - a financial worry or even fear, it can prevent our bodies from letting go to give birth. We in effect are fighting our bodies and don't even realize it. She gives many examples of how, once the worry or concern is expressed or even resolved, that a woman goes from 3cm to 9cm within hours after having labor being stalled. I found this very interesting.

Here are just a few things that stuck out after reading Part 2 of the book (and these are VERY general statements, so may not apply to you):
  • While birth could be described as painful, there are many other words to describe it as well. We, however, are plagued with a society that has constantly held birth to be viewed as something to fear (just watch one episode of A Baby Story). TV will always show you women who are screaming in pain, strapped down to a bed, hooked up to machines and nurses and doctors running around like crazy. But that is not the only type of birth there is. 
  • Women have been trained to fear birth. Quietly, society and media have instilled in us that we aren't built or made to give birth and can only do so with a surgeon looking on. (**Some births do require a hospital setting and a surgeon looking on, so please don't take this statement as an anti-OB statement. It is not) Yet, women will put themselves through arduous painful hours at the gym, through cosmetic surgery and etc for beauty - and that is not something to be feared? When we hear someone has done a natural birth, we are all in shock and think "why on earth would you do that?" There should be no judgment in a person's choice.
  • Our baby has his/her own plans when it comes to birthing. Have a plan but be flexible.
  • Instead of using negative words when thinking of birth, try to use words without such negative connotation...this can help the mind not fear it so much. 
  • Listen to your body.
  • Your body is not a lemon. 
  • Everything that happens during the birthing process, happens for a reason. 
After reading this book and going through some of the birth stories, I realized
  • how important it is to LOVE your bodies. We so often take our bodies for granted. I know that I will always talk about how fat I am, or jiggly. I never think about the fact that every part of my body is in good working function and has done amazing things for me for the past 34 years. But I need to learn to love my body. Respecting my body will help me to have faith in my body to birth. To listen to my body when it is trying to tell me something. Being self-aware in this manner can be a life's lesson that i'm learning during this very important time. 
  • I need to read up on the happy birth stories and not just the traumatic scary ones. While you can't help but be aware that scary birthing stories DO happen, how often do we spread the happy birth stories. The stories of mom's who actually enjoyed their birthing experience b/c they knew what that process would bring. 
  • I need to surround myself with positivity and support. If we ever discuss natural births, I don't want the reactions to be "WHAT?" "Why are you trying to be a hero?" "What were you thinking?" etc... It is important that as I respect other's decisions to follow their own birth plan, i get the same respect. Natural birth is as valid as a choice as a birth with interventions. And Choices should be respected.
  • You can have a mommy/baby focused labor/birth and not one focused on the hospital's guidelines or Dr's schedule.
  • There is always an inherent risk in birth and that does not necessarily diminish in a hospital setting.
  • Any emotional or mental baggage I have pre-birth, I need to try to resolve right away. Sometimes just stating it out loud relieves you from the stress. It'd be good for me to figure this out now.  
  • Even with a birth plan and my type A personality, our baby may decide to come pre-term, upside down, sunny side up - etc and at that point, my birth plan may change... but as long as we are focused on the well being of the baby - all will be well!
 And mostly I need to Remind myself that I am strong. I am empowered. I am not a lemon!

I would highly suggest this book for anybody who is going to birth. It is a bit granola, I won't lie - but there's nothing wrong with that :) And I don't suggest reading it to try to change people's minds b/c this book is mostly about natural birth, but rather b/c it can open your mind to your options and to read positive and happy birth stories so the fear of birth can be diminished. We need to read happy birth stories, to know they actually do exist.

Baby Watch: Week 19

Just got back from the OB's for our appointment. He did the doppler for the heartbeat and said it was around 140. He said it was a strong heartbeat! :)

We went over a few things, questions and what not. While we didn't have too many questions, we did go over something that was SHOCKING for me. He revealed that my Blood type was AB. Now you may think, that's not so shocking, but my whole life, my mom said I was B - just like my dad. For over 30 years, I thought I was Type B Blood. And you are still probably thinking, no big deal... but in Korean Culture, your blood type is a big deal. Many people will ask b/c they feel it reveals insights into one's personalities - similar to how Westerners use astrological signs. So in a way, its knowing you were an Aquarius your whole life, only to be told you are now a Sagittarius ... So i'm still reeling from the shock!

But back to baby news, My back has been hurting a lot more lately, but i try not to complain and realize its all for the baby. My center of gravity is shifting and thus, causing some pain. But i'm using this neck massager thing i bought years ago that i never used b/c it didn't help my neck, that now is awesome for my back - thank GOD we kept it all these years :)

So onto Week 19 Baby watch.
Source: Baby Center




Happy Friday Y'all

If you are on the East Coast, stay dry and stay warm.

If you are on the West Coast, Stay cool.

have a safe and great weekend y'all! :)

Silly things Daddy Says {#2}

  • While discussing Cloth vs. Disposable diapers, I read this article:  I mentioned to Husband that maybe we may consider doing this, but not solely - i.e., when we travel use disposable b/c of the convenience but do cloth at home or something along those lines. His response: 
Husband:  yeah, cloth at home, disposable on road
Husband: 
like baseball teams have home and road uniforms lol

le sigh... whatever works to make him fully understand the concept! From now on ... all baby things should be spelled out using MLB or NFL terminology. LOL

The Baby was rattled

I will not tell a lie...  Yesterday when the DC area was hit with a 5.8 - we were startled. My heart was racing. It's been a while since I've felt a shake or even a tremor, but I've been through some of the big ones in southern California. Being born and raised in Cali, you know they can hit at any time. I've been asleep, in the shower, on the toilet, or just hanging around when they hit and I drop whatever i'm doing and hit that doorway as fast as my little legs can go...

But yesterday was different. I was in my bedroom pinning up some things on the wall. The TV was on, my mom was out on our 6th floor balcony and we were minding our own business. Then i heard rattling. Something was making the walls shake, but Juneau just kept chillin' on the bed next to me. So i went to the laundry machine. I figured we over filled it and it was tilted and making a fuss. Nothing. Came back to the bedroom and its still kinda going.

It got a little stronger and that's when I knew it was unmistakeably an earthquake. I didn't want to believe it. Earthquakes don't happen in DC. I'm not in Cali anymore... JIGGA WHAAAAAA....

My mom ran in from the balcony and she's like "isn't this an earthquake?" also in disbelief. And i'm like it has to be and we just stood in my bedroom doorway. Juneau still chillin' on the bed. Kota chillin' on the couch... both with their heads raised b/c we were freaking out.

And yes, while in Cali a 5.8 is just something that happens from time to time. Here... on the east coast, it is not! The element of surprise/shock and the fact that it was a 5.8 (no small quake by any means) definitely stirred the city up.

Most people were sent home b/c buildings had to check for structural damage. The city shut down. And while this is laughable back home in Cali, let's keep in mind, our buildings are built to withstand earthquakes. And with all the lawyers that live in this city, liability is a huge concern.

But we are ok... damage in our condo was one picture frame fell off the entertainment center and our file cabinet drawers opened - so minimal would be an exaggeration. And that's why this photo entertains me... you've probably seen it around
Titled: DC Earthquake Devastation - Source
Hopefully others who felt it are all ok! It is just nuts that there was an earthquake out this way. I thought we left that behind us back in Cali with all the good food! LOL :)

{My Thoughts} The Business of Being Born

I woke up today to a friend posting a question on FB about the documentary "The Business of being Born". This is a documentary by Ricki Lake and directed by Abby Epstein regarding the business surrounding births in the United States.

So my response to her FB post about the documentary and what people's thoughts were was: " I have. For me it was informative and gave me a reason to do my own research deeper into our birthing options. I asked my OB @ something only to realize that in the birthing room, he'd do what he felt was appropriate and would accommodate me "within reason" (his words). So now we are on a few waitlist for midwives/birthing center. I think the overall thing I learned from that video was - Be informed. Do your own research. Figure out what you want. Be flexible, your baby may have other plans. Do what's ultimately best for baby. But its up to you to know your options. :)"

I mean, you have to keep it concise on FB, right? And that was pretty long. So i figured I may expand my thoughts on a post about the documentary.

A neighbor introduced me to the My Best Birth site, which is the site connected with the documentary. I perused a little. I watched Cindy Crawford's webisode where she discusses her own experience with home birth. And I was intrigued. I wanted to learn more about this thing that seemed so foreign to me - birthing OUTSIDE of a hospital. I mean, why? Why do people do it? We don't live in some third world country! We have technology and trained surgeons and doctors, so why not use them?!

When I first got pregnant, i was asked "well you are gonna do the epidural, right?" and answered "well of course!" without much thought into the statement. All of my family and friends have done what is considered the norm now - birthing in a hospital, using interventions and just following along whatever the OB said to do. I never really thought there was any other option. And they all had beautiful healthy children. So it obviously isn't a wrong choice. But it was a choice.  And once I realized that there were birthing choices, and that I really didn't know what my options were and was haphazardly just saying i was doing things b/c it was the only thing I knew people did, I KNEW i had to do my own research.

And for me, that is what The Business of Being Born taught me. The documentary throws out shocking figures about the US infant mortality rate and c-section rates - and I admit, yes I was shocked. But unless I did my own research, I was simply taking their word for it. So i decided "let's hold off on any decisions, talk to friends and families about their experiences, read some more about this and try to make our right choice." And that's where we are.

So while I admit I've made some decisions, others are still being made because there is so much that goes on with the act of labor and birthing and bringing someone special into this world. But i'm grateful I watched the documentary b/c now I know that each choice we make during this pregnancy, the labor, the birth and our child's lives needs to be done b/c we think its best for our child and not b/c its just what everybody around us is doing. And that definitely does not mean what everybody around us is doing is wrong, b/c it isn't. It just means, we need to be well informed parents. I feel we all have the same goal - do what is best for our child.

Everybody parents differently so why is birth any different. And we all do what we think is in the best interest of our child. And all of my friends and family, regardless of the type of birth experience have brought beautiful, healthy strong children into this world - which is the ultimate goal. But I do think that it is important to know you have options. I didn't know that we have options until I saw this documentary and it was eye-opening to realize how many of us don't know and why is it that we don't know!

So would i suggest this documentary? YES!
Would I say it could change your mind? Absolutely it may, but it may not as well. But i say the only way to know would be to watch it for yourself.

SIDENOTE: While i know the subject of parenting, birthing, labor and etc is a very personal one, I hope nobody who reads this feels defensive. It has been my experience that while talking about births in vs. out of hospitals can stir up a lot of emotions, even when it is not intended to be a critical debate. So, i hope my point is taken (as well as Ricki Lake's which she repeatedly has said in various interviews)... this is not a pro-home /birth center post or an anti-hospital post - this is a post to encourage choices and to celebrate the fact that we do have options and we can make our own personal decisions.

So have you seen the documentary? What did you think?

Baby Watch: Week 18

Finished off a full 17 weeks and beginning my 18th week, I feel pretty good. My Mom is visiting me, while my Dad is also here but for work. So I've got my mom feeding me tons :)

This week, they say the baby is about the size of a TURNIP!
Source: Baby Center





A big Korean favorite for pregnant and breast-feeding moms is MiyukGuk, Seaweed/plant soup. It definitely taste better than it translates, so my mom had my uncle in Kwangju, Korea send me a BIG box that included this and some other good for you items (Gim - Seaweed, think California Roll wrapper and MyulChi - dried anchovies).
And of course, it's what my momma's been cooking! I love having her here... nothing feels as good as home cooked food while pregnant! and she's been cooking us up a storm ... I'm glad the Baby will get good Korean food while in the womb, it will get him/her ready for all that is in store for her/him when s/he arrives!  :)

Raising a bilingual Child

It is my hope that our child will be Bilingual. I know that's ambitious, especially considering I'm the only bilingual one in the relationship and English is our common denominator... but It is my goal. I also know that with all the planning i'm doing now, flexibility will be the key, b/c our child will have a mind of his/her own!

I came across this article that I thought was very interesting and helpful... I've copy and pasted parts of it, but i encourage you to read the WHOLE article!! It is very informative and I'm sure there are others like myself in an inter-racial relationship; raising a mixed heritage child, or in a 100% ethnic relationship with a 100% blooded child, but who are 1.5 or 2nd generation (or more) in the States.

It is such a blessing to have a cultural background, and i hope to make the best of all the worlds our child can pull from to make his/her world as colorful as it can possibly be!


| By Leslie Berestein Rojas

Trying to raise bilingual kids? How to stay on track when English is easiest 

"Surrounding yourself (and your child) with books in your native language can help Parents who are trying to raise bilingual children might be familiar with SpanglishBaby, a website dedicated to that goal.

And let’s face it, for those of us who have lived in the United States all or most of our lives, it can seem like an elusive goal at times. As fluent as we may be in the language of our parents, it’s easiest to fall back on English. More so if our partner is a monolingual English speaker, or someone who grew up speaking a language different from ours.

At the same time, research has shown how much a child can gain from speaking a second language. Aside from the obvious – communicating with grandparents, future job prospects – being bilingual can boost brain development and provide benefits for life.

What to do? Roxana Soto, co-founder and editorial director of SpanglishBaby, is here to help with a few tips for overcoming the temptation to give up. More tips from SpanglishBaby will be included in a forthcoming book due out in fall 2012.

M-A: If you’re second-generation or 1.5, it’s likely that you speak English at home, even if you are bilingual. You want to speak Spanish/Mandarin/Tagalog/etc. around your child, but it’s easy to slip into English. How to overcome this temptation – or perhaps, this laziness factor – in order to teach your child your native language?

Soto: This is definitely a common issue among those trying to raise bilingual children and probably the most popular reason why many of them eventually give up. Regardless of what languages we speak, the reality is that we are surrounded by English everywhere we go. My suggestions are to start speaking to your child in your native tongue in utero, that way it comes much natural when she is born. However, it is never too late to start. Just be prepared to face some resistance depending on your child’s age.

Surround yourself (as opposed to just your children) with your native tongue. So, if Spanish is your native language, listen to music, watch movies and read books, magazines, blogs in Spanish. Along the same lines, try to hang out with native speakers or join a meetup for those who speak your native language, so you are forced to practice it on a regular basis.

M-A: If your partner speaks only English, what to do?

Soto: I have nothing but utmost respect for those families using the OPOL (One Parent One Language) method. I am blown away by their commitment to raise bilingual children despite the obvious difficulties in speaking to them in a language the other parent does not comprehend. Having said that though, it should be noted that it is not only doable, but it is done all over the world, as this is the most popular method of raising children with more than one language.

First of all, you are going to need the support of your monolingual partner. (While not impossible, lacking that support will only make things much more complicated.) You are also going to need to stay committed to speaking in your native language and have your children act as interpreters for the monolingual parent, which apparently happens quite naturally. In the end, your monolingual partner will end up learning at least the basics of your native tongue after listening to it all the time. A win-win situation for all.

A while ago we dedicated a whole week to the topic of raising bilingual kids using the OPOL method, which has been one of the most popular since we launched our blog two and a half years ago. The one thing I learned then was that having a monolingual parent should not be an excuse not to raise bilingual children. While lots will say it is really difficult – and I tend to agree – I know for a fact that it works because I have witnessed how a friend of mine has been doing just that with her two children and her monolingual husband with much success.

M-A: Is there a magic age window during which to do this? What to do if your child is older, say already older than five?

Soto: I know it sounds trite, but it is NEVER too late. It’s just easier (when they are younger). Many experts agree that the optimal time seems to be from birth to 3 years – which is when a child is learning his first language, and his mind is still open and flexible.

The next best time for learning a second language is apparently when kids are between ages 4 and before puberty, because they can still process multiple languages on parallel paths. In other words, they build a second language system alongside the first and learn to speak both languages like a native. After puberty, studies show, new languages are stored in a separate area of the brain, so children have to translate or go through their native language as a path to the new language.

So if you did not get started with the minority language when they were born and now your child is already in school, do not despair. You may be faced with resistance, but if you make sure the way you are exposing your child to the minority language is fun – via music, movies, books, apps, games – you will have more than half the battle won."

Opting out of Early Pre-Natal Testing

The husband and I opted out of the Early Pre-natal testing without doing much research before making the decision. At our 10 week appointment, our OB asked if we wanted to do the Nuchal Translucency Test at 12 weeks.

According to BabyCenter, "The NT test uses ultrasound to measure the clear (translucent) space in the tissue at the back of your developing baby's neck. Babies with abnormalities tend to accumulate more fluid at the back of their neck during the first trimester, causing this clear space to be larger than average.

The NT scan must be done when you're between 11 and 14 weeks pregnant. (The last day you can have it done is the day you turn 13 weeks and 6 days pregnant.) It's usually offered along with a blood test in what's known as first-trimester combined screening.

Like other screening tests, an NT scan won't give you a diagnosis. But it can assess your baby's risk for certain problems and help you decide whether you want to have chorionic villus sampling (CVS) or amniocentesis to find out whether your baby is actually affected.
"

Basically, what our OB said was that currently due to my age, I'm at a 1 out of 200 chance of having a child with Down Syndrome. This NT test will either say my chances increase or decrease, however the test won't always catch Down's and even if it increases your risk, that doesn't necessarily mean you will have a child with Down's either.

If we detected that my chances rose and the NT test said I was now, let's say 1 out of 60 - we could opt to do an amniocentesis which our OB said had a 1 out of 150 chance of causing miscarriage.

At the time, we opted out of this testing b/c it was so not certain and we decided it may just cause undue stress.

At our last appointment, which was 14 weeks, the OB offered another test which we could do at 16 weeks which would be the Multiple Marker Screening. This tests for chromosomal abnormalities. But again, it only assesses the risks and only an amnio could give you a sure answer.

Since our OB assured us that at our 20 week appointment, we'd have a thorough ultrasound to detect for any abnormalities and at that time, we'd have a more confident assessment and could still do an amnio later in the game - we decided to wait.

This has been good and bad. While we don't have the undue stress of false results - I worry. But then again, I'd worry regardless since these tests also can miss things. So alas, our 20 week appointment with the ultrasound tech is getting closer and I'm doing my best to keep my stress at bay.

Regardless of how you go about it, to do the early testing or not, i think some degree of worry is involved. I've heard of amnios going right and amnios going wrong. I know that hindsight is 20/20 and the stress of wondering if you are making the right decision also comes into play.

But we did what we thought was best for our stress levels and our baby at the present time. We can only hope that our baby comes out perfectly healthy, but regardless ... however s/he comes into the world - s/he will be our "perfect" baby; imperfections included!!

Did you opt in or out for Early Pre-Natal Testing? If you aren't there yet, what do you think you'd do? While its such a personal decision, hearing other's experiences always gives me more insight into the situation, so i'd love to read about yours :)

Our Baby's hearbeat, at my whim...

So I recently went on this great blog (From Match to Marriage, have you seen it?) where she talks about the "Best sound in the world" and discusses the various reasons as to why you should/shouldn't buy your own fetal doppler... and links to a site where you can buy one for a mere $50 bucks (Click Here). That's right!

Now I can go over the various reasons as to why you shouldn't buy a doppler and mostly its for the stress in case you don't find/hear the heartbeat.  And y'all know I wanted to rent/buy one (my post here) b/c I didn't feel that My OB really let us listen very long and would help alleviate worries, but the few sites I found were way too pricey ($50/month to rent, and over $200 to buy)... Many people suggested I don't buy one b/c I may stress or that it was an unnecessary expense.

But for $52 bucks, I was sold. And when it arrived - I reminded myself... Do not stress if you can't find the heartbeat. And luckily, i did b/c it took me over 10 minutes to find the heartbeat... but i did.

And i won't lie, sometimes it does take a while to find the heartbeat, and other times its instant. Most often, our baby seems to be quite the mover and shaker, so I'll find his/her Heartbeat and then it'll drift and I lose it after a few seconds... but this is what i've noticed... the baby is most active in the am it seems ranging up to 160, sleeping after dinner with a low heart rate, and mid afternoon was in 130's



I'm so happy that I found that info on the From Match to Marriage Blog and have no regrets spending a little money to get to hear our baby's heartbeat as often as I want :)

Baby Watch: Week 17

We are happily finishing our full week 16 and entering Week 17. Yesterday I went with some pals to go watch The Help at the theaters, and had noticeable lower back pain that had me fidgeting throughout the movie trying to get comfortable. (I felt bad to my seat mates for the constant movement)  Interestingly enough, i don't typically have a lot of lower back pain - so i'm thinking my back and core are probably just too weak for the weight of gained thus far :(  Hubby put a heatback on my lower back and tried to rub out the tension, but perhaps sitting still for 2 hrs in just not in the cards for me ... yikes!

Here is our baby update this week!
Avocado - Source: BabyCenter



Silly things Daddy says {#1}

  • Reading Baby Bargains - says we will need 100diapers/wk for first 6 weeks!   Husband says "you should learn to sew...and make diapers out of Juneau hair!"
Apparently he meant to make cloth diaper covers by knitting dog hair into a faux fur cover, not that we'd use the hair to absorb the baby doo doo and pee pee.  Although, at first I wasn't sure... Crazy man. No child needs Faux Fur Diapers! LOL

1st Trimester Highlights

When did I find out: around 5/18, I had a hunch. (9dpo), I wrote a post on 11dpo.
My Reaction: Disbelief, Excitement, Happiness, Nervous and scared
How did i tell Daddy: Click Here
His Reaction: Excitement, Happiness
When did you announce to family/friends: We sent little postcards with a poem to our closest friends and family around 6/20 and announced to the world on 7/6... with this video! :)
Pet names for the baby: "spawn" (but i was told that's no longer allowed); "BabyFry", "FryBean", my parents call the baby "Jangyee"
Total Weight Gain/Loss: about 5 lbs
Gender: Don't know for sure but the pendant test says boy. 
Movement: none yet
What I miss most: Hollandaise sauce, caesar dressing and raw oysters
Symptoms: slight nausea in week 6 and 7. Car/motion sickness is more intense. Slight dizzy spells early on. A lot of urinating. Two emotional outbursts. Very tired. 
Cravings: Fruit, veggies, Asian Instant noodles.
Smells that make me sick: microwaved pork roll
Best Moment this period: Seeing the baby's heartbeating in week 6 ultrasound (6/6) and seeing movement in week 10 ultrasound (6/27). 
What I am looking forward to: peeing less. and looking pregnant and not fat. 


Here are some comparison photos. I don't really want to share since it's bare-belly - so if you don't want to see, please do not click on the read more... but since this is for my own journal of the experience, i will be bold and post.

Baby Watch: Week 16

As we enter week 16, the symptoms have remained the same... i'm tired a lot but doing well. :) I'm trying to up the gym activity but man oh man do i not want to :)

Here is where Baby Fry will be this week!
Apple - Source: Baby Center




Baby Fry's First Hello

On August 3, 2011... I think I may have felt our baby's movement. Now, I can't be sure b/c I don't know what movement feels like but from all descriptions I've read, this could definitely be it. And while I'm still only in my 15th week, which is early to detect movement... I don't know what else it could have been...

What I felt was not gas... trust me, I know my gas! ;) but it was stronger than just a mere flutter and almost felt like tapping.... tap tap tap tap tap. a few seconds and then gone. It could be described as bubbles bursting but it was definitely stronger than a soft bubble, so i don't know what else it could have been. It was a feeling I've never felt before.

I turned over to my Husband and said "OMG, I think I just felt the baby" and he kinda jumped up and said "WHAT?!" It was an exciting moment if that is what it was, but how to know...

Am I crazy to think I could feel something so early? Anybody else feel the flutters of your baby's movement early? What did your movements feel like?

Hearing our Baby's Heartbeat


On Monday, we went in to our routine OB appointment. It went quickly... very quickly. The OB took but a few seconds to place the doppler on my belly so we could hear the baby's heartbeat. It sounded like a whooshing... but was a patterned consistent sound, so we knew it was the baby's heartbeat. I wish we could have heard it longer or seen the baby at the appointment, but apparently - that's not what we do at this 14/15 wk appointment. (Full 14 wks completed, entering the 15th week).

I'll be honest, i've been dying to hear the baby's heartbeat. So much so, i took my mom's blood pressure stethoscope thing and tried hearing for the heartbeat... to no avail. Yes, I know... as my brother said to me when I told him "you are a donkey!" LOL but i figured why not give it a try. 

I am grateful for this appointment though. The past few weeks I've been a bit worried. You see, having no symptoms or very little symptoms makes it hard to tell if the Baby is in there. I know it sounds paranoid but at least the effects of the little one is felt. For me, with hardly any symptoms, i just kept worrying... but the heartbeat was strong and steady. The Dr. said about 150beats a minute... or so he claimed. He said the same thing last time but didn't really even measure it on the sonogram - so i'm skeptical.

I'm contemplating renting a pre-natal doppler just for peace of mind but its not very cheap... have any of you tried that?